Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Big Girls have more fun.

Big girls have more Fun


     Today is a very important day for me. I have decided to lose someone. That fat girl that keeps smiling back at me in pictures is holding me back. She is draining my energy and stamina. She takes over and eats out of control and sits around feeling sorry for herself. She has so many issues. 
    Now that being said, that fat girl is me. I love food, joking, and fun. I like to go to bed late, wake up just in time, and share wonderful meals with my family. Unfortunately the fat girl likes food to much and never feels full. She craves candy to make her feel better and has to have all the extras. I try all the time to convince her that water is good, but she falls out for a soda every time.
     My blood sugar had been running high and my knees are knocking worse. I have trouble some nights just getting up on my feet. I know that 240 pounds is not grotesque, but it is to much. She has become to much. I need to lose. How exactly do I do that I ask myself. Do I starve the fatty out or try to out run.
     Healthy eating in my position is difficult. You see as a poor person can not afford what I would consider healthy food on a limited income while feeding a family of six. I make concessions for quantity over quality all the time. That means increased starches and fats. See if you buy a cheap hot dog, which comes in big packages, you get a hot dog with several times the amount of fat as an expensive one.
     So where should I start. Some say diet while others boast exercise. Others claim just adding water does it. None of my current health habits are good enough to discuss right now. I eat what I crave when I crave and that's that. I don't do any exercise that I am not made to. I would rather read about exercise that put exercise into motion. Now don't get me wrong. My big girl laughs, loves, and does not care what other people think. She snuggles and jokes and sings to herself and indulges herself in all the selfish habits that make her happy.
     But now she has to move out. Maybe she can leave some "junk in all the right places" but all in all she has to go. This isn't about self esteem, or fitting into the media image of a "hot chick". I just wanna run, wear high heels, and be able to bend over without grunting. 
     So today I start the mental preparedness to travel on this long journey. Taking the nerd approach I will phone a friend, start a group, and research until my brains squeak. So get ready body, tomorrow is a bright new day just for you!

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